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My mind has been a miserable place to be right now.
I'm miserable.
It's 1am. Despite the fact I have to be up at 6, I'm still awake trapped in the prison that is my thoughts. I'm tired. Really tired. But I can't go to sleep because I'm very afraid if going to sleep. I'm scared that I'll have a dream about my uncle. Or my uncles. Both killed in pursuit, for trivial reasons, for no reason. Makes me wonder, remember the guy in Aurora that shot up the movie theatre? How'd they subdue him? Why is he still alive? Why was my uncle killed instead of subdued for having a hairbrush in his hand?
I miss them. Gosh I miss them. I try not to think about them, to push them in the back of my thoughts. And when it works, I have an alright day. But most times, when it doesn't work, it's hell. My mind, hell. I wish I was with them. I don't have any big brothers, but I had big brothers. My uncles, 18 and 22. When I was little, we'd play games, listen to music, feel better. I felt, to some odd extent, that they loved me so much. I could feel it despite my young forgetful age. So smart, too. Khiel loved poems. Na'im was a book worm. And I the artist. What a team we could have been had they reached 25 at the very least
Not only am I failing to maintain a happiness, but I'm also failing all of you, my watchers,who probably aren't even reading this because you've given up on me. With good reason too, I hardly upload, and when I do, it's nothing you care about. Because Good Little Girl was the reason you loved me. Sometimes I love Good Little Girl and the little success it gave me. But other times I wish I never created it. Because I don't have confidence to continue with my original works. After Reality is turning out to be a blow. I did so well with a series that wasn't my own and my own series flops. I ended Good Little Girl with 893 of you and I'm back to 881. Can I do anything more wrong at this point? Should I continue with comics?
I don't even know.
I want to be free of these thoughts, this depression I'm rejecting.
I want school to be easier. I haven't been sleeping, so I haven't been waking up to go to school, and my grades are suffering in my most important year. And the work is impossible.
I want to be four and sit in my uncle's lap and listen to music with him, of even be a few months younger and call my other uncle and tell him that I love him.
I want too much, and I won't get it, because the things I want are impossible.
  • Mood: Pain
AFTER REALITY CHAPTER 2 PART 1 NOW ON TAPASTIC! by graphicspark
AFTER REALITY CHAPTER 2 PART 1 NOW ON TAPASTIC!
After several months of waiting, it's here!
After Reality Chapter 2 Part 1 is available to read for free here: tapastic.com/episode/7673
It was easier creating this time around feeling extremely relatable to the characters and all, which may or may not have made it better
Anyway remember to like, subscribe, comment, and share with your friends. Your help means tons. You can also read it on the Tapastic app, available on Android and Apple devices
Thanks for reading
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After several months of waiting, it's here!
After Reality Chapter 2 Part 1 is available to read for free here: tapastic.com/episode/7673
It was easier creating this time around feeling extremely relatable to the characters and all, which may or may not have made it better
Anyway remember to like, subscribe, comment, and share with your friends. Your help means tons. You can also read it on the Tapastic app, available on Android and Apple devices
Thanks for reading
  • Mood: Content
AFTER REALITY CHAPTER 2 PART 1 IS UP! HAPPY THANKSGIVING! tapastic.com/episode/76733
Hey everyone!
So the past few months have been hellish. It's a pain that this chapter took so long to make, but school and personal stuff keeps me away from my tablet.
NEVERTHELESS, AFTER REALITY IS BACK ON TAPASTIC WITH "IT'S GOING TO RAIN" TOMORROW, THANKSGIVING DAY!
I'm excited for this chapter. It's the start of me doing After Reality by myself. Lots of feels. The mark of the beginning of the trio's journey. It'll be fun to share with you guys.
If you're not caught up, you can catch up at tapastic.com/series/after-real…. While you're there, please subscribe, comment, and like the comic! Your support makes After Reality ans anything else I do what it is!
Also, you can download the Tapastic app on Google Play for Android devices, and on the App Store for any Apple device. You'll get push notifications when it's uploaded!
Thank you all so much for your help
  • Mood: Content

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graphicspark
Onto the future!
Artist | Student | Digital Art
United States
I like Childish Gambino and making comics for your viewing pleasure
You should follow me on Tumblr: graphicspark.tumblr.com
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My mind has been a miserable place to be right now.
I'm miserable.
It's 1am. Despite the fact I have to be up at 6, I'm still awake trapped in the prison that is my thoughts. I'm tired. Really tired. But I can't go to sleep because I'm very afraid if going to sleep. I'm scared that I'll have a dream about my uncle. Or my uncles. Both killed in pursuit, for trivial reasons, for no reason. Makes me wonder, remember the guy in Aurora that shot up the movie theatre? How'd they subdue him? Why is he still alive? Why was my uncle killed instead of subdued for having a hairbrush in his hand?
I miss them. Gosh I miss them. I try not to think about them, to push them in the back of my thoughts. And when it works, I have an alright day. But most times, when it doesn't work, it's hell. My mind, hell. I wish I was with them. I don't have any big brothers, but I had big brothers. My uncles, 18 and 22. When I was little, we'd play games, listen to music, feel better. I felt, to some odd extent, that they loved me so much. I could feel it despite my young forgetful age. So smart, too. Khiel loved poems. Na'im was a book worm. And I the artist. What a team we could have been had they reached 25 at the very least
Not only am I failing to maintain a happiness, but I'm also failing all of you, my watchers,who probably aren't even reading this because you've given up on me. With good reason too, I hardly upload, and when I do, it's nothing you care about. Because Good Little Girl was the reason you loved me. Sometimes I love Good Little Girl and the little success it gave me. But other times I wish I never created it. Because I don't have confidence to continue with my original works. After Reality is turning out to be a blow. I did so well with a series that wasn't my own and my own series flops. I ended Good Little Girl with 893 of you and I'm back to 881. Can I do anything more wrong at this point? Should I continue with comics?
I don't even know.
I want to be free of these thoughts, this depression I'm rejecting.
I want school to be easier. I haven't been sleeping, so I haven't been waking up to go to school, and my grades are suffering in my most important year. And the work is impossible.
I want to be four and sit in my uncle's lap and listen to music with him, of even be a few months younger and call my other uncle and tell him that I love him.
I want too much, and I won't get it, because the things I want are impossible.
  • Mood: Pain

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Mightylightning Featured By Owner Nov 10, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
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incomitatus3 Featured By Owner Sep 23, 2014   Digital Artist
Thank you for the favorite!:+fav: I really appreciate it :)
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EZENT Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
you just made america proud by liking my Obama Painting...Thanks for the fav :D (Big Grin) 

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Shono Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2014  Professional General Artist
Catty Clan Girls by Shono  

Just like what WarAngel said: Thanks for the faves!


If you enjoy my sketch art, I have a book full of my sketches available now at Amazon. You can check it out here: www.amazon.com/Shadows-Oblivio…

If you’re not interested, that's cool too, i still appreciate the faves, and the support!

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BonaFideChimp Featured By Owner Jul 7, 2014  Professional General Artist

Thank you for the fav! Feel free to check out the rest of my gallery or my :facebook:Bona Fide Chimp Official FB Page :) Your art style is really cool! Your comic book characters are interesting... congratulations!

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graphicspark Featured By Owner Jul 7, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Thank you! That means a lot to me! :D
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BonaFideChimp Featured By Owner Jul 7, 2014  Professional General Artist
No problemo! Continue what you do best! 
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graphicspark Featured By Owner Jul 7, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Thank you so much! :hug:
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RabidPaper Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2014
Thank you for the fave!  I really dig your gallery too.
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graphicspark Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Thanks! I like yours a lot, too!
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Subzerowins Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you so much for the fav! :D
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graphicspark Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2014  Student Digital Artist
No prob! Great work!
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VinceOkerman Featured By Owner Jun 15, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Really nice comic you got there :D I watched you !!
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graphicspark Featured By Owner Jun 15, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Thanks, bud!
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schnurrDOSE Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you so much for the fav! :tighthug:
Have a llama for it my friend :D
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graphicspark Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2014  Student Digital Artist
no problem (:
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graphicspark Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Sorry, bud, but I don't have any points ;( If I get any, I'll definitely help out. Sorry!
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DiamondDog777 Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2014
Oh, okay. ^^; you don't need to help. It's ok.
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graphicspark Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Super sorry. :(
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Aghorishaivite Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2014  Professional Writer
Thanks for faving!
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